Worn

This song expresses exactly how I have been feeling lately. It is called WORN by Tenth Avenue North.

Blessings,

Melissa

 

Exit Permits

We got an email from our agency yesterday. Sixty two families, 15 from the US, will be recieving their exit permits to bring their children home soon. But that's all. No one else will be given an exit permit until DRC has written, passed, and implemented their new adoption laws. There is no timeline on this. It could take months or years. Also these new laws could be retroactive which means that families that have already completed their adoptions and are just waiting for their exit permits could have their adoptions overturned because they don't meet the new laws requirements. It doesn't seem fair to me to change the rules when you are approaching the finish line. But I am not the one in power and DRC doesn't really care about adoptive parents rights or feelings. I am so discouraged and depressed today. We have been on this adoption journey for over 8 years and we keep getting doors slammed in our face. I am tired. If we are not able to adopt Nathaniel, for whatever reason, then I am done with adoption. I am not being dramatic or emotional. I am just tired, emotionally and physically, of the whole process. Obviously adoption was not meant for us. It's a hard dream to let go of, but it is becoming more and more clear that I may not have a choice. Everyone keeps telling me to hold on and don't give up hope, but I don't know that I have any hope left to hold onto. Blessins, Melissa

Mimi, we need another girl.

This morning at breakfast, Desiree said"Mimi, we have alot of boys in our family. We need another girl." I told her to tell Poppy so she did. He said,"How would we get another girl?" And Desiree's reply was," We can tell everybody that if they have a baby girl that they can't keep that we will take it." I told her we should pray and ask God if He will send us another girl for our family. Little did she know, but I have been praying for just that very thing for awhile now. I would love to adopt one more time. A girl for Desiree and I would want her to be a girl of color so Nathaniel would not be the only person in our family that doesn't look like us. Pray for God's Will to be revealed. Blessings, Melissa

Tough Week

It has been a rough week for us. I went to my doctor for some knee pain. Found out I have arthritis in my right knee. I went to the dentist on Tuesday with a tooth ache. Found out I have an infection in my tooth and it needs to be removed. Yesterday my son Brandon smashed his finger in the back door. Luckily it is not broken just swollen and painful. Still it could be worse. I am thankful that I can walk even with arthritis. Many people can't. I am very thankful for modern dentistry. A hundred years ago I may have died from an infection. And of course I am thankful Brandon did not break his finger. Counting my blessings this week. Blessings, Melissa